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 BROADCASTS FROM LATE NINETIES

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YOUTHOFAMERICA
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LSYF/YOA WORKED WITH 17-24 OLD AT RISK FOR 10 YEARS

LSYF/YOA ALSO WORKED WITH YOUTH ONLINE PROVIDING FREE INTERNET SPACE, WRITING CONTESTS, FREE SOFTWARE & WEBSITES FOCUSING ON EDUCATION AND WRITING. LSYF YOA RECEIVED OVER 50 AWARDS HAD 22 VIDEOS 18 NEWS REPORTS

THE 1964 FIBERGLASS “WEB-MOBILE” FOUND NEARLY DESTROYED IN A NC FIELD WAS RESTORED AND UTILIZED FOR NEARLY EIGHT YEARS AS A NEWS VIDEO BROADCASTING
TRAINING AND CONTENT LIVE GENUINE DELIVERY SYSTEM  

 BELOW PRESIDENT CLINTON ATTEMPTED TO ASSIST LSYF/YOA SECURE A BUILDING FOR OUR
EXPANSION. HE HAD THE CHIEF OF URBAN HOUSING AND DEVELOPMENT CONTACT US.
 

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  A RESPONSE FROM THE DEPARTMENT OF URBAN HOUSING AND DEVELOPMENT
AFTER BEING NOTIFIED BY PRESIDENT CLINTON THAT LSYF REQUIRED A BUILDING FOR OUR SELF FUNDED YOUTH AT RISK PROGRAM

 

 “It is important for me to know how you feel about the challenges our nation faces today…” President Clinton

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“Your book is GREAT. I could not stop reading until I had read all of it.” Jay Walton – Old Rugged Cross Press

“You have written a fantastic book..” M.L. Jones – Living Faith Literary Agency  “Perseverance does pay off…” Shawn P. Evans – The Atlanta Metro “…

your kindness is exceeded only by my appreciation…” Maynard Jackson – Mayor of Atlanta ’93

Hopefully this is the beginning of something good…” Robert W. Lee – Pres. International Boxing Federation and USA Boxing Commissioner

“You played an important part in our City Access broadcasting…” Brenda Jackson – City of Atlanta Broadcasting

“The mind possesses an ability to do amazing things, but rarely do we meet people who encourage us to pursue our goals…” Meredith Dunn-Atlanta Business Chronicle

“WE present you with the key to the city of boxing for your contribution of education and motivation…” Samuel Floyd – Atlanta Bankhead Boxing Academy

“Fanning the deck . . . Author’s “House of Cards” tells of troubled past . ..” Amy Forester, The Atlanta Journal-Constitution

“Writer touts books as saga of spirituality, tale of good, evil . . “ Sarah Fischer, The Gwinnett Daily Post

 

 

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[AFTER ALL OPERATIONS. NOTE FEET, LEGS, RIGHT LEG AND FOOT ANGLE
LEFT FOOT ANGLE AND BOTH LARGE TOES. THIS WAS IT AS FAR AS CASTS
AND FINAL OPERATIONS. THE REST WAS BRACES AND SPECIAL SHOES.
THEY NEVER EVER WERE EVER BETTER. STILL AT 63 THEY ARE 4 EVER
WITH PAIN. NORMAL SHOES WEAR OUT IN 6 WEEKS. I RATHER WEAR
JUST SOCKS. THE KNEE JOINTS ARE WORN OUT. ]

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I WAS BORN CRIPPLED, DID NOT WALK TILL 5, WORE BRACES TILL 8 WHEN MY FATHER AND UNCLE WERE SHOT DEAD IN A MOB HIT [1961] , SHOT IN THE FACE SO THEY COULD NOT HAVE OPEN CASKET FUNERALS.

The year was 1953, the month January, the day the 30th. I was born with great hearing, that is what the doc told my mother to cover the fact that from my knees to my toes the bones, cartilage and tendons were a mess. Club feet being the main diagnosis, but all the rest being part and portion to the whole.

First came light surgery to the Achilles tendons, bone work, and a few other cuts [the butcher at work]. Then more surgery. See the pic above? THAT WAS AFTER ALL OPERATIONS. MY feet and legs ARE still bent]. I would have difficulty walking till 5, wore 7 different style high top shoes fitted with braces till 8 WHEN THEY ADDED THE STEEL PLATES ATTEMPTING TO FORM ARCHES… OMG!!!!!!!!!

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DURING this time, my Nana Lou [Nana = grandmother] would take me to her apartment on weekends where she would shower me with love. And at night? Her 4th husband, Dominick [ Grand Pa Dom] would shower me with his love ….at night. He was a grade A child molester. He either had everyone fooled, they were blind, or in Nana-Lou’s case, she let it occur !!! I simply cannot see how she could not have known! Later, in my actual story, you be the judge!.

They say that a person that is homosexual is born that way, i disagree, a child that is raped and raped and is not subjected to counseling in most circumstances CAN become homosexual. But that is for A DISCUSSION later on. For now i shall continue    .

I would wear special shoes off and on from 8 until 13, depending on where i was. If i were free and living on the streets, not, but if i was caught in the belly of the social justice system, i would have a pair of torture shoes complete with steel inserts they were “for sure to make arches in the bottoms of my feet! This was an impossible task. Simply put, it was akin to 14/15th century Inquisition Torture. It was impossible for a steel plate fashioned into a reverse arch was going to make an arch in my foot. But i was punished and beat so many times for removing the plates…

Last but not least, i wet the bed until 8. I would learn it was part of the molestation more than the club feet and other problems. Once I got out of the house i stopped it. But, my father’s death and my own demands that I would no longer sleep at my Nana Lou’s place and my running away over and over before i hit the road and learned to hitchhike long distances truly ended this situation. I would not let Grand Pop Dom lay his hands on me! Oh he tried and, for several years it was a nightmare to remove and empty much of the baggage that had built into my mind; especially on the roads and the streets of our nation where sex is traded and sold and stolen almost in every city and county and place and nook and cranny… i find my lack of detail in all my writings   and story telling over the past 40 years a shame on me and others whom may be assisted…

 

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So, this real deal that during this time I had a pervert step-Grand Father who set up my Father and Uncle for a hit!!! Both of them were aware of a contract. They had gone to a mod sit down. They knew they had lost the beef and were called to the carpet. Their choices where two, hit the hitters or leave town. Joe PeP wanted to go to Ohio. He had connections there. But my mother did not want to take her 3 kids and Aunt Jose had 9 kids,,, .

So they were determined to make their own moves. But this pervert Step Grandfather used his friendship and his marriage to my Nana Lou { my Mothers Mother}  to get two hit men into my Father and Uncles Pizza Joint were they were shot in one of the bloodiest hits ever in NY CITY, I MEAN IN MANHATTAN ITSELF. SHOT IN THE FACES SO THEY COULD NOT HAVE OPEN CASKET FUNERALS. UNLIKE THE GODFATHER, MY MOTHER AND AUNT JOSEPHINE COULD NOT AFFORD TO BRING THE BODIES TO AN UNDERTAKER TO FIX THEM UP. THEY HAD CLOSE CASKET FUNERALS.

 

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I NEVER EVER GOT OVER THE FACT I COULD NOT GO TO THE FUNERAL.  I WAS LIED TO AND INFORMED IT WAS AN AUTO ACCIDENT. AND DOMINIC? THE 6.4 FOOT RAPIST CHILD MOLESTING PERVERTED GRANDFATHER??  THE MAN WHO HAD HIS CLAWS INTO JOE-PEPS KIDS, THE SAME ONE WHO SET UP HIS OWN WIFE, NANA LOU, MY GRANDMOTHER, FOR A ROBBERY TO PAY OFF HIS BOOKIES, THE SAME MAN WHO ACCOMPLISHED THESE TERRIBLE UNDERTAKINGS AND WHOM, I WOULD DISCOVER,  MY 4 FOOT 8 INCH GRANDMOTHER KNEW ALL ALONG ABOUT? WELL, 20 YEARS LATER I WOULD CATCH UP TO THIS 6 FOOT 4 DOMINICK… YUP.. HE WAS SLIGHTLY UNDER 6.4 DUE TO THE FACT HE HAD SLIGHTLY LOST THAT STATURE. BUT THAT TALE IS FOR LATER, LIKE A FEW TO SEVERAL 1,000 WORDS LATER……

My demeanor was shy and I was treated with disdain. My mother would fly off the handle due to a mental disability [ I inherited part and portion of that in the form of BiPolar Manic Depressive diagnosed by the VA in 2009 along with another mental disability of long-term memory loss that may have been caused by physical injury at the ages of 5 through 11].

The only greatness of the above facts was my mind. Some how the pain and the heartache and my now forgotten relative’s love turned on something in my mind. It was the ability to read a book and do what was in it. I mean to read a book on a subject once and perform that subject. Say auto mechanics. I would read it, and with that book, do it. Read one on botany and specific ideas, treatments and phases, get to the top of that books teachings. Read about vintage watches then restore vintage to the tune of thousands. Read about Jewelry for one month then go to the top as a national acclaimed expert gold smith in the USA in one year. Anything you can ever imagine,. Though I was always a bright, smart kid, the reading retention was all i ever had. Yet phone numbers, addresses, names, physical items, connections, experiences, where i last laid don an item? FORGET IT!

Proof? Over 100 letters, awards, news papers, and more. This may have been due to the fact I hardly left the house, that I read and read and read. That from from years i read thousands of books. From 8 to 15 I slept in libraries and read at least 10,000 books. Back then Relatives had always brought me books. When they were “peter pan” they could see my dismay. When it was a book like James Jones, From Here to Eternity or J. D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye at 6 years of age? Well, i would tear through them in a week. Word got around that i was reading at college level by 7 years of age and the relatives simply dumped used books on my bed.I cared less if they were torn, missing covers or stained, just no pages missing please. This caused Jeanette [my mother] to snatch them up and dole out MY NEW WORLD TREASURES AS SHE SAW FIT!. Both I and they were but hostages of her whim and her world; a world she controlled with an iron fist. Two of us boys slept in one room, so i hoarded as many as i could under our mutual bed.

From birth to 8 years of age, my mother would often have running physical battles with my father, who as an active Racketeer /Mobster “officially” connected to a Mafia family that operated in Harlem in the heroin rackets. I was named after him. My Mob name would have been “Joe-Pep” [ had i hypothetically succeeded him].

[JOE PEP RACKETEER -CENTER]

Joe-Pep was never home. Mother would often take out her anger on her kids …and me in particular due to the fact i was always at home, By my seventh year she began slamming my face into window sills, or hauling off and hitting me full force in the face on impulse before realizing that she had hurt me severely, then plead “don’t tell your father! don’t tell your father!”over and over.

It was like “HER EYES WERE ROBOTIC AND IN A SPLIT SECOND WOULD CHOOSE AND GRAB A PIPE, POLE. STEEL SPATULA OR ANY SUCH OBJECT LYING IN REACH AND LAND UPON ANY EXPOSED PART OF YOUR BODY, BACK, ARMS CHEST OR FACE.

 I mean it was as it she was equipped with uncanny radar to seek flesh. She was liken to a drone of an apocalypse of battery. And if all normal fleshy areas were covered, the face became the target of choice. Fresh dual black eyes, and/or a broken nose or cheek bone would get two days of an icy reprieve before school was again mandatory.
Yes, some would say “that’s crazy”, the cops would haul her off.. well, it did not happen. My mother began to force me to “go out and play” in that dark dirty dangerous jungle. No amount of argument nor pleading that my stripes of steel would make me prey to the predators -whom abounded the jungle and plains. That my braces and my stripes that adorned my face so often were dead giveaways to the bullies who knew they could chase me down for i could not run a lick.

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GAMBINO IBF PRES & USA BOXING COMMISSIONER

From 5 years through 8 the only reason i was not literally dead was that i did fight. I would grab the first person and never let go. When i went down he went with me and when i got pummeled i bit scratched chewed banged ripped him also.  

Her apologies were always from the heart in measured tones and manors of vocal pleadings that she never intentionally meant to harm me….. I would constantly show up with severe bruising and when the 114th street precinct occasionally got a call from the school with my name, they took the call then simply ignored it. They hated my father. I mean hated him. The name provoked nothing but vendetta

Only when he was murdered did they then claim responsibility for the son….
So, like the African Plains, the wounds lead to further violence. The bullies saw the black eyes, busted nose’ and other injuries as, at the very least, signs of weakness. It made me prey for other sinners in the prides. In fact i could not ever successfully go and “:pickup” a pack of kool cigarettes anymore. I had to let them “rob”the 32 cents then steal them; cause i could not run.

Later on, after his death [think of the Serengeti Plains of a NYC Housing Projects and that was my “OUTDOORS”. ] I DOUBLY hated the “streets” of NY where i had to fight, lie AND steal.

Stealing did not necessarily mean theft. There are many ways society steals from one another. And when in constant pain and loneliness, I chose my outdoors and trips by way of those books. I could not leave the house w/o fear. In fact, I used to prey to God. All i ever want is a safe room. That is it. Just a room. That is it Lord. For the rest of my life. With my books. I SWEAR THIS ON ALL WHOM I LOVE TODAY…..

 I WAS BUT 8, HAD JUST HAD MY BRACES REMOVED I AWOKE TO EXCITEMENT BECAUSE MY FIRST DAY OF NO BRACES. THOSE CLUMSY EMBLEMS THAT HAD MADE ME BUT PREY TO BE HUNTED RATHER THAN A HUNTER AMONG THE STREETS… THEY WERE BUT ZEBRA STRIPES TO THE LIONS WHOM I FEARED SO MUCH I NEVER WANTED TO “GO OUT AND PLAY”

THEY WERE NOW ABSENT AND I WAS TO WEAR MY SUIT, TIE, FEDORA, AND ITALIAN POINTED TOE FENCE CLIMBERS TO GREET FATHER THAT DAY. THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE … NO LONGER LOOKING THE CRIPPLE… ONLY TO DISCOVER HE WAS GONE. 4 EVER….
P LEFT HOME THAT NIGHT DESPERATELY TRYING TO FIND ST JOSEPHS AND THEIR CASKETS. ALL NIGHT I ROAMED AS COPS BY THE DOZENS TRAVERSED THE STREETS TRYING TO FIND ME –BELIEVING THE MOB HAD KIDNAPPED ME ALSO. THAT MORNING I SHOWED UP AT THE SCHOOL TO FIND TWENTY POLICE CARS ALL WAITING DESPERATELY PRAYING I WOULD SHOW.
 
MY FATHER’S BODY BEING REMOVED AFTER MOB HIT 1961
HE & MY BEST-EST UNCLE WERE SHOT POINT BLANK IN FACE NO OPEN CASKET
I WAS TOLD AN AUTOMOBILE ACCIDENT BUT OVERHEARD “NO OPEN CASKET”
DESPERATELY I SEARCHED FOR ST JOSEPHS AND HIS CASKET THAT NIGHT
TILL THE BRIGHT LIGHT PEEKED THE FILTH OF THE CITY

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1997 2.6  YRS AFTER START OF LSYF/YOA YOUTH
PROGRAM AND RELEASE OF HOUSE OF CARDS

TO SCHOOL I WENT THINKING OF PEACE ONLY TO GREET 20 CARS OF COPS
THOUGHTS OF THE MOB AND KIDNAPPING AND MURDER

MOTHER DID SHOW SHE CARED WITH TWO BLACKEN EYES A BROKEN NOSE + CHEEK
FACE BRITTLE N’ BLACK N’ GREY N’ RED N’ SWOLLEN 4 6 WEEKS

THE NEXT THING I KNEW WE WERE IN A HOUSING PROJECTS AND IT WAS TERRIBLE. THERE WERE NO WHITE PEOPLE BUT THE SOCIAL WORKERS WHOM WERE BLACK SAID “WE ARE GOING TO PLACE YOU HERE FOR 40 DAYS AND THEN MOVE YOU ACROSS ASTORIA TO ANOTHER HOUSING PROJECT THAT IS MAINLY WHITE”…

NOW, THERE WERE TWO PLACES IN QUEENS THEN, ONE ALL BLACK WITH SOME SPANISH AND THEN PLACES FOR WHITES….BUT AS WE GOT TO 20 DAYS THEN 35 DAYS THEN 30 DAYS AND THEN 35 DAYS AND THEN 40 DAYS AND THEN 45 DAYS THE BEATINGS GOT WORSE AND THERE WAS NO SOCIAL WORKERS WHITE BLACK OR TAN….
SOON I DISCOVER THAT MY NEW SCHOOL IS BUT A PRISON…
THEY LOCK THE DOORS 
TO KEEP US IN RATHER THAN OUT
AN MY FIRST 5 DAYS I GO HOME WITH BLACK EYES
RATHER THAN TO SCHOOL WITH BLACK EYES…

AN’ 40 DAYS NIGHTS OF BIBLICAL PROPORTIONS 4 I AM MOSES IN A CONCRETE DESERT
AN’ 4O IS BIBLICAL IN NUMBERS FOR FORTY EQUALS OUR PROJECT APT #
AN’ 40 X 40 = OUR STAIRS WITH PISS STINKING LANDINGS
AN’ 40 EQUALS 3 WHITE KIDS + 37 BLACK KIDS ON OUR FLOOR
AN’ 40 EQUALS THE PUNCHES I TAKE LEARNING HOW MANY LETTERS ARE IN THE NEW WORDS LIKE NIGGER N SPIC N FUCKING SHIT BASTARD COCK SUCKING WHORE BITCH
AN’ 40 DAYS I KNOW WHAT RUNNING AND BEING 40 FEET BEHIND MEANS IN TERMS OF GETTING BEAT UP
AN’ 40 DAYS IS NOT JUST BIBLICAL IN A BOOK ANY MORE
AN’ IN 40 DAYS THE PRIEST SAYS MEANS LIKE BEING LIKE CHRIST…..
AN’ IN 40 DAYS I SAY BUT FATHER I AM NOT CHRIST … DON’T YOU SEE???
AN’ IN 40 DAYS I LEARN THAT TEMPORARY DOES NOT MEAN TEMPORARY ANYMORE…

TIRED OF MY FACE BEING SLAMMED INTO WINDOW SILLS AND BEING BEATEN WITH EVERY THING FROM SPATULAS TO VACUUM CLEANER PIPES AT HOME AND FISTS AND FEET ON THE STREETS I BEGAN RUNNING WAYAWAY….

MY LIFE HAS BECOME A PERMANENT RESIDENCE OF STREETS AN’ DOOR WAYS
AN’ HALLWAYS
AN’ STAIRWAYS
AN’ THE PERVERTS ABOUND…..
FROM STREET SLEEPING TO STREET LIVING
TO STREET MONGERS EVERYWHERE

I SOON QUIT SCHOOL
AN’ QUIT HOME…

AN’ JOURNEYED THE STREETS

THAT IS WHEN LIBRARIES BECOME BOTH MY EDUCATION BASE
AND SLEEPING QUARTERS
WHEN EVER POSSIBLE

FROM 11 YEARS OLD TO NEAR 18 YEAR  
ACROSS THE NATION
I HITCHHIKE
 STATE TO STATE

WHEN I AM NOT PICKED UP AND THROWN INTO A DETENTION CENTER
……………………OR JAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 ON THE ROAD SOME WHERE ………LEARNING.

I LEARNED THE STREETS AND THE PEOPLE . WHILE I NEVER BECAME A THIEF OR CRIMINAL >>>>> THAT IS IN THE SENSE OF A THIEF OR CRIMINAL

I SURVIVE THROUGH WIT RATHER THAN FIST

RATHER THAN THIEVING I PICK TOMATOES, COTTON, BEANS AND EVEN WORK  PECAN GROVES, ORANGE, APPLE  AND OTHER GROVE…  UNLOADING TRUCKS ALWAYS A MEANS TO GET BOTH A RIDE AND SOME BUCKS…

I STILL WOUND UP ON BOTH SIDES OF THE LAW. YET DOING RIGHT ALWAYS WAS A MOTIVATING FACTOR, YET IT WAS NOT ALWAYS AVAILABLE.

THE FACTS OF RACE AND PREJUDICE WEIGH HEAVILY. IT MADE NO DIFFERENCE AS TO AGE, HECK, MANY A SHERIFF THOUGHT I WAS MEXICAN … OR ‘RICAN.. OR ANYTHING BUT WHITE…. YES, I DID GET INTO TROUBLE, BUT IT WAS ALWAYS THE STUPID KIND OF TROUBLE, I CALLED IT DESPERATION TROUBLE…

LIKE WHAT WOULD OCCUR WITH A STUPID TOOL BOX AND THE STUPID DECISION TO PLEA NO CONTEST TO WHAT WAS A STUPID NON CRIME AT ONE POINT IN MY LIFE..

.. I had HAD several stupid arrests IN MY LIFE AFTER REACHING ADULT AGE.

THIS INCLUDED ONE SIMPLE SITUATION THAT PROGRESSED TO A SERIOUS CHARGE THAT EVENTUALLY WAS BROUGHT BACK TO SIMPLE.. BUT MAN FOR 6 MONTHS IT WAS SERIOUS… HAD IT NOT BEEN FOR AN ITALIAN LAWYER THAT NANA LOU KNEW WHO KICKED SOME AZZ.. WELL IT COULD HAVE BEEN IN AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT STORY
THE KIND WE READ AND SAY “NO WAY!”
 
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I RECALL THOSE  DAYS OF DAY AFTER DAY ON THE ROAD… ESPECIALLY IN THE DESERTS OF THE WEST OR THE DESERTS OF THE MIND WHEN THE ROADS WERE LUSH WITH EVERY
COMFORT TO MIND BUT NOT TO HAVE!!!

 A CAR WOULD STOP OR SLOW DOWN BUT NO MATTER THE THIRST HUNGER OR PRAYER FOR A RIDE YOU KNEW BETTER THAN TO HOP IN THAT CAR…

TO KNOW THIS YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH A FEW EXPERIENCES.. I MEAN SOME ONE COULD TELL YOU A STORY.. BUT STILL, YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH A SERIOUS EXPERIENCE AND GET AWAY –HOPEFULLY–  WITHOUT GETTING HURT –AT LEAST NOT TOO BAD— TO KNOW WHEN NOT TO GET ON BOARD…

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WHEN DO WE FORGIVE SOMEONE FOR THE LIFE LONG HURT AND THE UTTER CHANGING OF OUR LIVES , ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE NEAR BEING A CRIPPLE TO EXPERIENCE THE HORROR OF BEING ABUSED SO HORRENDOUS THAT YOU NEVER SPEAK OF IT UNTIL YOU ARE NEAR DEATH?  YOU ARE T THE END OF YOUR LIFE?? YOU ARE SO TRAUMATIZED THAT YOU BECOME SO TOUGH SO ALTERED THAT IT LITERALLY CHANGES YOUR LIFE SO MUCH YOU NEVER EVER BECOME WHOM YOU DESIRED.  IT EFFECTS YOU SO MUCH THAT YOU FOREVER CANNOT TRUST ANYONE, YOU DO NOT HOLD ON TO ANYONE. YOU DO NOT KEEP ANY FRIENDS. THAT YOU DO NOT TRUST ANYONE. THAT YOU EVEN DROP ANY FRIENDS, LOVED ONES, AND ANYONE AT ALL IN YOUR ENTIRE LIFE SO THAT YOU DO NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THEM?

 

LETS GO BACK IF YOU WILL. I MAY HAVE JUMP STARTED THIS TOO FAST:”

NANA LOU IS MY GRANDMOTHER ON MY MOTHER’S SIDE. SHE LIVED TO BE 3 MONTHS SHY OF 103. SHE OUT LIVED HER ONLY DAUGHTER, 5 HUSBANDS, AND MOST OF HER SIBLINGS. . SHE WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR KNOWINGLY EXPOSING HER ONLY CHILD’S  2 GRAND CHILDREN TO HER PERVERT 4TH HUSBAND DOMINICK. THIS SAME DOMINICK WOULD BE RESPONSIBLE FOR PROVIDING THE TWO HIT MEN WITH ACCESS INTO THE RESTAURANT TO KILL HER SON IN LAW AND HIS BROTHER.

MOTHER IS MAD, IT SEEMS THAT THE ABUSE FROM DOMINICK IS LEADING HER TO BELIEVE THAT THERE IS SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME.THE ABUSE IS CAUSING HER TO THINK THAT I MAY BE NOT MANLY. I WILL GET MORE INTO THIS LATER ON. IT TOOK DECADES BEFORE I REALIZED THAT CERTAIN THINGS SHE DID AND SAID HAD TO BE DRIVEN BY MY ACTIONS AT A VERY YOUNG AGE. AND THEN IT OCCURRED AFTER I BEGAN GOING TO THE VA AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE GETTING  MENTAL HEALTH CARE. WOW!. WHY DID SHE BEAT ME BLACK AND BLUE? BROKEN NOSE’S,  BLACK EYES? PLURAL.???? SHE MUST HAVE THOUGHT THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG! SHE WAS ALWAYS TRYING TO “MAN ME UP”????

SHE SAYS I MUST FIGHT BACK— BUT HOW??? I ASKED… WISHING FATHER WAS HERE TO SHOW ME….THE SCHOOL DOES NOT SEE THAT I AM NOT A VIRUS CAUSING ALL TO GET SICK. RATHER, I AM SIMPLY KIND OF SHY. I SPENT MOST OF MY LIFE IN BOOKS. NEVER GOING OUT AS A CHILD DUE TO MY HANDICAP.

I WAS BEAT UP A LOT. I DID NOT KNOW WHY???

MY HANDICAP HAS MADE ME SLIGHTLY QUIET THOUGH EAGER TO SHOW MY KNOWLEDGE. WHICH OFFENDS MANY WHO NEVER READ LET ALONE READ THE BOOKS I DID. THIS PLACES ME OPPOSITE TO JUST ABOUT ALL IN THE CLASS. BY NOW I HAD READ THE CLASSICS; ANCIENT HISTORY; PHILOSOPHY; SCIENCE.

IN FACT, I HAD ALREADY BEGUN TO HANG OUT AT A LOCAL SCIENCE PROCUREMENT HOUSE/BUSINESS THAT SOLD TO SCHOOLS, COLLEGES, MUSEUMS IN LONG ISLAND CITY. FROM ANIMALS AND ANIMAL EMBRYOS IN FORMALDEHYDE EXOTIC REPTILES, I WAS LIKE 4 GRADES AHEAD. AND SOME AT COLLEGE LEVEL. I LOVED READING AND LEARNING.

BUT THAT WAS IT. SOCIAL SKILLS WERE WAY BEYOND MY ABILITIES. I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO START A CONVERSATION. IF I DID, IT WAS TO SAY SOMETHING ABOUT HEMINGWAY! OR NERO OR CAESAR…

MY CLASS IS FULL —- THEY ALL HATE ME, I MEAN HATE ME.. THE ENTIRE CLASS! WHY? BECAUSE THE BULLIES ALWAYS HAVE THEIR WAY. THEY USUALLY ARE NOT TO BRIGHT. AND WHEN THEY SEE A SMALLER PERSON, WITH SOME DISABILITY AND A LACK OF COMMUNICATION SKILLS AND ONLY EDUCATION SKILLS THAT MAY BE USELESS, WELL, THEY NOW CAN USE THEIR SKILLS.

IT WAS LIKE A VIRUS… NO ONE KNEW WHY? OR WHAT WAS CAUSING WHAT EVER IT WAS? THEY SAW ME BUT THEY DID NOT KNOW ME…. THEY DID NOT KNOW IF IT WAS ME OR HOW IF THERE WAS A CURE FOR THIS SITUATION. BUT ONE THING WAS FOR SURE, IT WAS SHORTER THAN ANYONE IN THE CLASS. WORE OLD, WORN OUT, OUT OF DATE CLOTHING. IT LIMPED IN FUNNY, HIGH TOPPED, WEIRD OLD TIMEY TYPE SHOES WITH THE EYE HOOKS FOR LACES.  IT WAS A FUNNY ITALIAN WHITE WITH DARK CIRCLES UNDER THE EYES AND OFTEN CAME TO CLASS WITH LOTS OF BRUISES ?

IT SIMPLY DID NOT FIT IN. IT WAS NOT LATINO, WHITE NOR BLACK, IN THE CLASS THERE WERE NO ITALIANS. 65% WERE NEGRO. 20% WERE LATINO THE REST WHITE.

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2003 2 YRS BEFORE RETIREMENT FROM
10YRS OF LSYF/YOA YOUTH PROGRAM

SO I LIE AND I LIE AND I LIE AND I JUST SKIP CLASSES LEST I HAVE TO FIGHT CAUSE I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO FIGHT….

SO I MUST HIDE IN THE DAY LEST THE TRUANT OFFICERS FIND ME OR EVEN SEE ME..
LIBRARIES, HALLWAYS AND EMPTY APARTMENTS.

LIBRARY
I COULD WALK INTO A LIBRARY AT 4:30 TO 5:30 PM. DEPENDING ON CLOSING. GO INTO BATH ROOM. WAIT UNTIL THEY CLOSED. READ UNTIL 3:AM. SLEEP TO 4:30 TO 5:30 AM. I HAD AN AUTOMATED BODY CLOCK [STILL TODAY!]. NO MATTER HOW TIRED, I WOULD THEN GO BACK INTO BATHROOM. WAIT TILL THEY OPENED. THEN SIMPLY WALK OUT. NEVER, IN 10 YEARS, WAS I EVER “CAUGHT”. NO ONE EVER CHECKED. THERE WAS NEVER EVER AN ALARM SYSTEM. NO ONE EVEN LOOKED OR BELIEVED ANYONE WOULD ROB, BURGLE OR STEAL FROM A LIBRARY. I NEVER TOOK, BORROWED OR STOLE ANYTHING.
MOVIE THEATERS AND MUSEUMS ALSO WORKED OUT GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MOVIE HOUSE

MOVIE THEATERS WERE MY SECOND PLACE OF REFUGE, OFTEN VIEWING THE SAME FEATURE OR DOUBLE FEATURE 3 OR 4 TIMES! I LEARNED HOW TO ENTER THEATERS FROM 8 TO 13 SUPER EASY DEPENDING ON SHOW AND TIME OF DAY. IF IT WAS COLD OUT AND I REQUIRED SLEEP AND WARMTH, THERE WAS SEVERAL WAYS. SO DEPENDING ON THE NEED, TEMPERATURE AND SHOWING I HAD UP TO 20 WAYS TO GAIN ENTRANCE.

THESE WERE MY PLACES OF REFUGE FROM 8 YEARS OF AGE THROUGH 17 YEARS OF AGE.
OIL HEAT/EMPTY APARTMENTS:

A- I WOULD HAVE A FEW CHARGES AS JUVENILE BASED ON THIS TYPE OF SURVIVAL SKILL. EARLY ON IN NYC, CHICAGO, PHILLY, AND OTHER COLD CITIES, I WOULD GO WHERE LARGE BUILDING DEVELOPMENTS WERE. USUALLY LOW COST HOUSING, PROJECTS. FIND MAIN BUILDING WITH OIL BURNERS FEEDING ALL BUILDINGS ON A BLOCK, CHIMNEY USUALLY CENTER BUILDING RAN UP STAIR WELL. WALL WOULD BE WARM TO HOT. CLIMB STAIRS TO ROOF DOOR. LANDING WALL HOT. SLEEP BUT TURN LIKE ROTISSERIE. TO WARM PARTS OF BODY ALL NIGHT. DIFFICULT BUT BETTER THAN FREEZING.

B- EMPTY APARTMENTS. WELFARE APARTMENT HOUSING OR HOUSING PROJECT
WHEN EVICTION OR MOVING OR TRANSFER OCCURRED, THE EMPTY APARTMENT WAS USUALLY NOT CLEANED UP OR RE-HABITAT FOR 2 WEEKS. IN DEEP COLD WINTER I WOULD ALWAYS CHECK TO SEE IF ONE WERE AVAILABLE. IF SO, GO TO ROOF AND CLIMB REVERSE TO FIRE ESCAPE. HEAT WAS ALWAYS ON IN WINTER, IT WAS STEAM. NO OUT SIDE SHUT OFF. YOU TURNED RADIATOR ON OR OFF EACH ROOM. I STAYED WARM MAYBE 40 TIMES FOR MAYBE 80 DAYS WHEN TEMPS WERE IN BELOW ZERO. ALWAYS KEPT CLEAN. ONLY STAYED FOR THE STORM PERIOD. ONLY 3 TIMES WAS I ROUSTED. TWICE BY PERSONAL WHO LET ME STAY TWO DAYS TILL TEMPS WENT TO 20 DEGREES. ONCE BY POLICE WHO LOCKED ME UP IN SPOTFORD DETENTION CENTER FOR BURGLARY FOR A WEEK. [WHICH WAS HOW LONG THE BELOW ZERO WEATHER WAS] . I WAS RELEASED TO THE SAME TWO COPS WHO DROVE ME TO RAVENSWOOD QUEENS AND LET ME GO! NO COURT. NO TURN OVER TO STATE FOR BEING RUNAWAY JUVENILE. SO, COPS WERE ACTUALLY COOL…
 
ALL’S WELL UNTIL: MR. TRUANT OFFICER COMES TO THE HOUSE….

NOW I KNOW I HAVE TO DEFEND MYSELF AT HOME, ON THE STREETS & IN THE SCHOOL

3 MONTHS OF 5TH GRADE AND I HAVE HAD IT. SO ONE DAY I COME UP WITH A PLAN… I BEGIN THROWING CHAIRS. JUST THROWING THEM UNTIL EVERY ONE HAS CLEARED THE CLASS. THIS SHOULD GET SOMEONE’S ATTENTION. THEY STORM THE CLASS AND PULL ME OUT

THE ULTIMATE SITUATION OCCURS: I AM BROUGHT BEFORE MY FIRST JUVENILE COURT JUSTICE.

“SON, YOU ARE VIOLATION OF THE LAW. NOT GOING TO SCHOOL. CAUSING TROUBLE IN SCHOOL. CAUSING TROUBLE AT HOME, CAUSING FIGHTS IN SCHOOL! WHY ARE YOU PICKING FIGHTS…..???”

“SIR, I AM NOT…”

“THIS IS A COURT OF LAW! DO NOT TELL ME WHAT YOU ARE NOT DOING! I HAVE THE REPORTS HERE, RIGHT HERE! YOU HAVE A HISTORY! RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME, 7 TIMES. WHAT ABOUT THIS. YOU RAN AWAY, HAD THE ENTIRE POLICE FORCE WORRIED. 25 POLICE CARS. OVER 40 POLICE OFFICERS? DID YOU NOT!…”

“SIR I DID NOT…”

“DID I ASK YOU TO SAY ANYTHING? YOU WILL BE IN SCHOOL TOMORROW, YOU WILL DO HOMEWORK. YOU WILL APOLOGIZE TO MR. EVENS, YOUR TRUANT OFFICER. YOUR CLASS. YOU WILL APOLOGIZE TO YOUR MOTHER.

HERE SHE IS TRYING TO MAKE A HOME FOR YOU YOUR TWO BROTHERS AND SISTER AND YOU ARE CAUSING HER PAIN AND SORROW. IF YOU COME INTO MY COURT ROOM ONE MORE TIME I WILL PUT YOU IN SPOTFORD DETENTION CENTER FOR TWO WEEKS. THEN LETS SEE HOW YOU BEHAVE…”

THUS MY “RECORD” HAD BEGUN. YOU CAN READ THE FACTS. FOR THESE ARE THE FACTS THAT ARE THE BEGINNING OD MY “RECORD”

NOTE: 2 STINTS IN REFORM SCHOOL WOULD OCCUR THAT LED ME TO STEER CLEAR OF NY AS A TEEN. READ HOUSE OF CARS TO CURSE OF ALPHONSO. THESE WERE NOT DO TO BEING A THIEF. ROBBING PEOPLE, VIOLENT CRIME. ONE WAS FOR TRYING GETTING INTO AN AUTOMOBILE ACCIDENT AT 14 TRYING TO LEAVE NY. I HAD NOT BEEN TO SCHOOL AND LIVING T HOME. ANOTHER WAS DUE TO THE FACT THE JUDGE STATED THAT I HAD TO LIVE AT HOME. I REFUSED TO LIVE AT HOME A LEFT NY FOR 8 MONTHS, UPON RETURNING THEY SENT ME TO WARWICK STATE TRAINING SCHOOL, I ESCAPED TWICE. THEY CAUGHT ME AND SENT ME BACK 8 MONTHS.

FROM 8 TO 18 WHEN I ENLISTED IN USAF, I SPENT ALL MY TIME LIVING ON THE STREETS NATION WIDE. OF THAT TIME 16 MONTHS WERE SPENT IN REFORM SCHOOL. THERE WERE NO VIOLENT CRIMES. I WAS ARRESTED FOR RUNNING AWAY, TRYING TO FEED MY SELF OR SHELTERING MY SELF. I WORKED AT OVER 100 JOBS ACROSS AMERICA, UNLOADING TRUCKS, PICKING TOMATOES. COTTON, PECAN GROVES, DAIRY, MECHANICS, TRUCKING, WELDING, YOU NAME IT I WORKED IT. I WAS P/U FOR MINOR EVENTS ONLY. NOTHING THAT KEPT ME FROM JOINING THE ARMED FORCES [USAF] WHICH I RECEIVED AN HONORABLE DISCHARGE.

MY FEET AND LEGS WERE IN PERPETUAL PAIN DAY AND NIGHT..ESPECIALLY IN THE COLD. I TRIED GOING BACK, APOLOGIZING TO ALL — BUT ALL THAT DID WAS MAKE THINGS WORSE. I WOULD LOVE TO SAY SOMETHING I WAS DOING WAS WRONG. WELL, MAYBE LATER, BUT FOR NOW, I DID NOT HAVE TO DO ANYTHING TO BE DOING SOMETHING WRONG, GET IT? HELL, I STILL WAS COMING OUT OF PUBERTY. I HAD NOT STOLEN STUFF, DRANK BOOZE, DID DRUGS, LIED, CHEATED, STOLE. I MEAN I WAS AT THE BEGINNING OF LIFE……

SO I LISTENED TO THE JUDGE… LIKE THE REAL PLAINS OF AFRICA, WHEN THE TOP LION [NOW KING] HAS WON THE RIGHT TO LEAD THE PRIDE BY DEFEATING ALL CONTENDERS. THIS DOES NOT MEAN THE CONTENDERS WILL NOT ATTEMPT TO DEFEAT THE KING AGAIN! AND THE THE KING IS FAR FROM OUT OF THE FIGHT! HE AND THE PRIDE LIVES WITH THIS KNOWLEDGE UNTIL HE IS DEFEATED.

ON THE STREETS THERE IS A SIMILAR CODE. THERE ARE PRIDES, THERE ARE CONTENDERS, AND MANY CONTENDERS ATTACK OTHERS TO GAIN CONTROL OVER PRIDES OR TO SHOW PRIDES THEY ARE POWERFUL BEFORE THEY EVER CHALLENGE THE PRIDE OR START THEIR OWN. SO, IT IS NOT NECESSARY TO ATTACK A KING. THE MERE ATTACK OF A PRIDE-LESS PERSONA IS SUFFICIENT TO GAIN POWER.

WHEN I RETURNED HOME AND TO SCHOOL, I APOLOGIZED TO EVERYONE. I WAS MADE TO APOLOGIZE TO THE ENTIRE CLASS!! THUS THE PRETENDERS AND THOSE WANT-TO-BE-PERSONAS WERE NOW THRICE EMBOLDEN. EVEN THE [NO OFFENSE] OVERWEIGHT TRUANT OFFICER WHO HAD TO SHOE HORN HIMSELF INTO HIS BEETLE BEFORE GIVING CHASE TO SUSPECTED TRUANTS WAS APOLOGIZED TO.

IT WAS ONLY A MATTER OF DAYS BEFORE I ARRIVED AT AT SCHOOL WITH BLACK EYES AND BROKEN NOSE; THEN A SLICED EAR FROM A BEAT DOWN; THEN A SEVERE SCUFF TO MY RIGHT KNEE CAP, DEEP ENOUGH TO DRAW RUNNING BLOOD.
AS THEY SAY, THAT WAS THAT.

I HAD TO LEARN HOW TO FIGHT MY BATTLES AND BUILD A NAME THAT WOULD COVER 4 HOUSING PROJECTS AND 7 LOCALS WITHIN 3 BOROUGHS OF NYC.
 
 ‘CAUSE EVEN THOUGH THE BRACES ARE

GONE THE DAMAGE REMAINS…..

BEING 4 FOOT 10 TO 5 FOOT AND LACKING THE ABILITY TO OUT RUN A SLOTH MEANT DEVELOPING A NEW TRADITION OF DEFEATING EVIL. LIKE THE GREEN HORNET OR SOME OTHER CRIME FIGHTER WITH SPECIAL POWERS, I HAD TO INVENT MY OWN.

GETTING BEAT UP BECAME THE ORDER OF THE DAY OR NIGHT, ALL I HAD TO DO WAS SHOW UP… ANYWHERE .. ANY TIME…AND BAM! A WELL LAID PUNCH WOULD SET ME FREE FROM EARTH’S GRAVITY TO LAND UPON MY BACKSIDE BEFORE A KED’S SNEAKERED FOOT WOULD GLANCE MY BROW SETTING MY HEAD IN ROTATION FOR A ROUND OF ENGLISH STYLE FOOT BALL. LIFTED AGAIN FROM EARTH’S GRAVITY BY A WOLF’S PACK OF ENERGY…
BAM.. ONE NIGHT I FINALLY REALIZED THE ANSWER,,,WHY IT WAS SO I SIMPLE I DID NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT… GRAVITY, THAT WAS IT, GRAVITY, FOR CHRIST’S SAKE GRAVITY WAS MY BEST PARTNER. IT CAME AS AN AUTOMATIC HUMAN NEED FOR SURVIVAL MIXED WITH SHEER TERROR COMBINED WITH.. THAT’S RIGHT…… GRAVITY….
GRAVITY ACCIDENTALLY COMBINED WITH TERROR! SIMPLE, FAST AND GUARANTEED TO DO JUSTICE EVERY SINGLE TIME!

ALL I HAD TO DO IS REMEMBER TO

THAT IS IT..

THE FIRST PERSON THAT I COULD GRAB AND TAKE DOWN WITH ME TO THE GROUND WOULD BE THE ANSWER TO ALL MY PROBLEMS..

NO RUNNING AWAY. NO THROWING UP THE “DUKES” LIKE ON ALL THEM WESTERNS”
NO JUMPING INTO A KARATE STANCE AND CONTORTING YOUR BODY WITH WEIRD SOUNDS AND KICKS,,,

WHY EXPEND ALL THAT ENERGY BEFORE THE FIRST BLOW!
GRAB THE SON OF A BITCH
PULL THE SON OF A BITCH
THEN PUSH THE OF A BITCH
LAND ON TOP OF THE SUN OF A BITCH
CHEW THE SHIT OUT OF THE SUN OF A BITCH
KICK THE SON OF A BITCH WITH YOUR KNEES/

GRAB HIM BY THE EARS AND NEVER LET GO
IF THEY TRY AND PULL YOU OFF

WRAP YOUR LEGS AROUND HIM AND BITE HIS

EARS THREATEN TO BITE HIS NOSE OFF
 
GO NUTS GO CRAZY MAKE THE GUY BEG
 
USE GRAVITY
AND THEN DO NOT LET GO.
GRAB HIS HEAD AND BEAT IT INTO THE GROUND

I WILL GRAB HIM
I WILL PULL HIM TOWARDS ME
THEN PUSH HIM AS I FOLLOW HIM THROUGH

—- AND BE SURE I LAND ON TOP OF HIM. THEN AS THE OTHERS BEGAN TO PUNCH AND KICK I WILL PUNCH, KICK, BITE, PULL HAIR AND KNEE HIM WHILE YELLING WHAT I AM DOING WITH THE LOUDEST VOCALS OF ANY CRAZED PERSON EVER… UNTIL THE GUY BELOW BEGAN SCREAMING FOR HELP, FOR RELIEF TO THE OTHERS TO STOP, PLEASE STOP….

I DID NOT WANT TO KNOW HOW TO FIGHT. I DID NOT WANT TO FIGHT. BUT IT WAS NOT TOO LONG BEFORE I HAD A NAME ACROSS THE BOROUGH OF NY AND THE MAIN AREAS OF QUEENS NY.

FROM ASTORIA -INCLUDING 21ST AND 21ST AVE, NEXT TO THE CORNER OF CON EDISON PLANT AND EAST RIVER ALL THE WAY TO ASTORIA PARK, WHERE THERE WERE “WELFARE APARTMENTS [CURRENTLY RENOVATED AND RENTED FOR TOP NOTCH PRICES] AND THE *ASTORIA HOUSES HOUSING PROJECTS,

TO THE RAVENSWOOD AND THE 59ST BRIDGE AREA AND *QUEENSBRIDGE HOUSING PROJECTS,IN LONG ISLAND CITY,
 
TO THE *SOUTH JAMAICA HOUSING PROJECTS
 
TO CORONA, JACKSON HEIGHTS, FLUSHING, AS WELL AS SPANISH HARLEM AND 125ST/HARLEM IN GENERAL.

* HOUSING PROJECTS/**AREAS THAT CONSTITUTED FULLY MINORITY CONTROLLED

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SONNYBLACKed

SONNY BLACK WAS THE CAPTAIN OF THE BONANNO CREW
THAT BROUGHT IN THE FBI AGENT DONNIE BRASCO . HE
WAS MURDERED. THEY CUT HIS HANDS OFF. THERE WAS A MOVIE
MADE OF THIS STORY, THOUGH IT WAS NOT FACTUAL. MY FAMILY NEW
SONNY WELL. ALSO, HE HAD TWO SONS. ONE I TANGLED WITH IN LATE 1993 EARLY 1994. IT IS IN THE BOXING WARS STORY. THERE IS A BOOK ” BONES ON THE BEACH”. 
ABOUT HIS TWO SONS. THEY WERE BORN TO A NON ITALIAN WIFE AND GREW UP
WANTING TO BE MADE MEMBERS. INCREDIBLE STORY.

  I WAS 16 YEARS OLD, MY MOTHER HAD JUST INVESTED IN A RESTAURANT/SUNDRIES PLACE WITH FUNDS FROM NANA LOU. IT WAS USED AS A BOOKIE JOINT WITH A LUNCH COUNTER GRILL/SODA JERK SET UP.  IT HAD TONS OF BOOKIE FLASH PAPER — THE TYPE YOU PLACE A CIGARETTE AGAINST AND POOF IT JUST FLASHES AWAY?– IT WAS USED TO WRITE BETS DOWN ON AND IF THE COPS BUSTED IN ZAP, YOU SIMPLY HIT THE SHEETS WITH THE LIT END OF A CIG.

IT WAS THE BEST TIME EVER IN MY LIFE. TWO YEARS BEFORE I ENLISTED AND SEVERAL MONTHS SINCE I HAD HITCHHIKED BACK FROM CALIFORNIA.

I WAS HOME FOR 3 MONTHS AND MY BRO AND I FOUND A STEEL FLAT BOTTOM 6 BY 4 CURVED FRONT BOAT BEHIND THE HOUSE MY MOTHER AND LOUIE, HER SECOND HUSBAND, HAD RENTED. WE WERE LIKE ONE BLOCK FROM THE BAY. WE WOULD DRAG THAT BABY TO THE BAY EVERY DAY FOR 3 MONTHS.

HE AND I USED OARS UNTIL WE STOLE A SMALL OUT BOARD MOTOR . WE ACTUALLY ROWED 6 MILES AND GOT ONE. BUT WE PUT DIESEL FUEL AND SCREWED IT UP. A GUY AT A PIER SAW THESE TWO KIDS STRUGGLING IN ATTEMPTS TO START IT  [I WAS 16 HE 13] AND PULLED US OVER, PULLED THE MOTOR OFF AND APART AND FIXED AND FUELED IT. HE GAVE US A 2 GALLON FUEL CAN WITH GAS AND OIL MIX. WE WENT ALL OVER.

I PROMISE. IT WAS MY BEST-EST FAMILY/BROTHERS TIME EVER AS A YOUTH. IN FACT IT WAS THE FIRST TIME EVER SINCE THE POMPANO MOUNTAINS/WORLD FAIR 1964  RUN AWAY WITH THIS SAME BROTHER BACK WHEN I WAS 11 AND HE WAS 8 YEARS OLD!

IT WAS/IS THE BEST AND ONLY MEMORY I HAVE AND EVER HAD OF JOY WITH A FAMILY MEMBER IN MY ENTIRE 62 YEARS ON EARTH. THE ONLY TIME EVER BEFORE OR AFTER EVER EVER EVER EVER. IMAGINE. IF THIS IS NOT A SORRY STATEMENT I DO NOT KNOW WHAT WOULD BE… 

IT ALL ENDED WHEN I “BORROWED” THE CAR THAT SONNY BLACK –HE OWNED A CAR RENTAL PLACE ON BISCAYNE BLVD IN MIAMI — HAD GIVEN MY MOTHER AT A DISCOUNTED RATE TO GO FOR A JOY RIDE AND WOUND UP IN VIRGINIA 

END  SEPARATE STORY

 

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EVERY ONE LEAVES ME ALONE …FORGETS ON PURPOSE BUT THAT TRUANT OFFICER IN THAT BEETLE UP AND DOWN THOSE STREETS– KEENLY THROUGH THOSE BLACK RIMMED GLASSES A MEATY SANDWICH IN A MEATY HAND DRIPPING MEATY COLORED DROPPINGS
ALL OVER HIS ALREADY STAINED WITH MEATY DRIPPINGS JACKET

LET THAT OVERWEIGHT BEETLE DRIVING EAGLE EYED TRUANT OFFICER FIND ME
FOR I SHALL HIDE AMONG THE EDUCATED FILMS & BOOKS & HISTORIES
OF THE WORLD..WHERE EDUCATION IS PARAMOUNT AND NEAR FREE
FOR A KID LIKE ME >HUMBLE AND GRACIOUS SAYING THANK YOU
AND PLEASE AND WOW I DID NOT KNOW THAT ! THANK YOU
NEVER EVER ARRIVING AT THE SAME LIBRARY OR THEATER
MORE THAN TWICE A WEEK. I DISCOVERED THE MANY BRANCHES
IN ALL THE BURROWS. THE TRAIN AND BUS LINES HOW TO SNEAK
IN HOW TO JOIN CLASSES ON FIELD TRIPS THE MUSEUM OF NATURAL
HISTORY IN THE CITY [MANY HATTON WAS OUR “CITY”]WAS IT
I COULD IN THE EARLY YEARS GET FREE LUNCH BY SNAGGING ALONG
YES, THEATERS & LIBRARIES BECOME MY REFUGE DURING THE EARLY
WINTER DAYS

I HAVE YET TO LEARN TRICKS BUT I AM LEARNING
SO TOP LEVEL STAIR WELL AGAINST THE WALL IN THE COLD WINTER AT NIGHT
I LOOK FOR THE SMOKING CHIMNEY BUILDINGS USUALLY THE CENTER BLOCK BUILDINGS
OIL BURNING CHIMNEYS RUN AGAINST THE WALLS TO VENT AND THERE LIES THE HEAT
LIKE A ROTISSERIE I LIE AGAINST THE WALL TURNING WARMING A PORTION AT A TIME
ONE NEVER TRULY SLEEPS BUT BETTER THAN DOGGING POLICE TRUANT
SOCIAL WORKERS OR BUILDING SUPERVISORS ONLY THOSE IN THE BUILDINGS
THEY CARE LESS AS LONG AS YOU ARE NOT A DOPER OR SEXER
UNLESS ONE LEAVES THE CITY THIS WAS THE PLACE TO STAY WARM
TO LEAVE THE STATE LEARN THE STATES THE RULES THE LIBRARIES LEARN LIBRARIANS
YES, LEARN BOOK TITLES LEARN HUMBLE BE HUMBLE THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU APPRECIATE APPRECIATE LEARN TO APPRECIATE LEARN HUMBLE LEARN THANK YOU
HITCHHIKING THE COUNTRY PROVES SOUND REASONING.
FOLLOW THE DOGGONE SUN.

 

 

1963

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HIS [JBJR] FIRST [IN 6 MOS] AND LAST [WELL IT WAS ALREADY HIS LAST] DAYS AT HOME
NOTE THAT HE IS ONE YEAR YOUNGER THAN SISTER AND 3 YEARS OLDER THEN BRO. YET
LOOKS SMALLER. THIS IS DUE TO HIS BIRTH DEFECT. CLUB FEET AND THE POOR CARE.
NOTE THE BRACES WERE REMOVED AT EIGHT. THE DAY HIS FATHER WAS HIT. HE WAS STILL IN RECOVERY SO TO SPEAK AND STANDING LONG PERIODS CAUSED HIM TO SLOUCH AGAINST THE WALL WHICH MADE IT APPEAR THAT HE WAS SHORTER.
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NOTE WE ARE IN MOB ATTIRE: SUITES, FEDORAS PINKY RINGS ITALIAN SHOES.
WHEN YOU NOTE THIS PIC UNDERSTAND IT WAS 1963, JBJR HAD BEEN HOME ALL OF 2 MONTHS FROM THE STREETS. IT WAS 2 YEARS AFTER “JOE-PEP THE RACKETEER” -AS THE DAILY NEWS CALLED HIM- HAD BEEN SHOT IN THE FACE [AMONG OTHER SHOTS] IN A “MOB STYLE HIT” -AGAIN THE NY NEWS PAPERS- 1YEAR+ AFTER THE
“RUB-OUT ACCOMPLISHED TO KEEP HIM AND HIS STICKY AS GLUE BRO FROM HAVING “OPEN CASKET FUNERALS”, AND A FEW MONTHS BEFORE JBJR WOULD LEAVE AGAIN ONLY TO SNEAK BACK AGAIN TO CONVINCE CARMINE – NAMED AFTER HIS UNCLE THE ONE SHOT DOWN WITH THE FATHER– AT 8 TO LEAVE HOME [1964] WITH HIM
TO TRAVEL BEYOND THE “CITY” . A NOTE THEY LEFT STATED THEY WOULD RETURN RICH TO RESCUE THE FAMILY.. KNIGHTS IN SHINING ARMOR.. YOU KNOW..[ …IF YOU HAVE BEGUN READING THE BOOK.] BUT HAVING ONLY MADE IT TO THE NY WORLDS FAIR AND THEN ON TO THE POCONO MOUNTAINS BY WAY OF A FLASHY SUMMER BROCHURE SHOWING A RED CONVERTIBLE WITH HAPPY FAMILY, BLONDS AT THAT, MOM, DAD, SON, FLY FISHING WITH BEAUTIFUL ROADS AND RESORTS AND LOTS OF FUN…. THEY GOT SKIMMED OF THE 40 BUCKS THEY “BORROWED FROM MOTHER… GETTING 2 $3 BUS TICKETS …WELL, THEY TRADED THAT THERE NOTE OF “WILL RETURN MILLIONAIRES SO BORROWING ALL YOUR $40 IN CASH MONEY AND LEAVING THIS HERE PROMISSORY NOTE FOR MILLIONS IN ITS PLACE”
 
RULES OF TRAVELING
TO THE SOUTH THE WEST THE NORTH THE EAST…………………….
LEARNING MEETING GREETING
MY LIFE IS MINE…. AS LONG AS I STAY BEYOND THE REACH OF THOSE WHOM ARE ALWAYS ….LOOKING
MIX AND MINGLE … BE SURE YOU GO WHERE THE POOR LIVE
……………………………………………………………….

MY COMMANDMENTS TO LIVING ON THE ROAD

GO TO WHERE MIXED RACES DWELL

COMPLEMENT BEFORE YOU TALK A LOT

TRY TO KNOW SOMETHING BEFORE TELLING SOMETHING

LOCATE HOUSING PROJECTS FIRST…

STOP IN LIBRARY TO LEARN THE CULTURE OF THE CITY TOWN AREA FIRST

BLACK TAN WHITE MANY DIFFERENT TYPE

SOUTH EAST WEST NORTH DIFFERENT TYPE

MINERS STEEL WORKER FARMER PICKER NEW WHITE POOR WHITE OLD WHITE

ESTABLISHED WHITE 

WHITE POOR  HATE BLACK POOR HATE WHITE POOR FEAR BLACK POOR

FEAR WHITE POOR CONTROL BLACK POOR

TO SURVIVE AND BE HONEST HITCH HIKING PICK PEAS COTTON TOMATOES PECANS

UNLOADS TRUCKS DO THE WORKS THAT OTHERS DO SO YOU CAN BE AS THEY ARE

BE SURE TO REMEMBER SLANG DO NOT BRAG UNTIL YOU ARE AS THEY ARE

OR HAVE BEEN AS THEY ARE

UNDERSTAND FREEDOM MY FREEDOM MY RIGHTS UNDER THE LAW OF NATURAL FREEDOM

KNOW YOUR LEGAL RIGHTS VAGRANCY ID HITCH HIKING RULES ROAD WAYS RIGHT OF

WAYS

THE WORLD WAS BEDDED UPON THE LIE UPON THE GREED

OR UPON THE USE OF OTHERS  FROM THE VERY FILTH AND CRUST OF HER CITIES

TO THE NATURAL DESIRES OF HER PEOPLES PLEADING

EVEN THOSE HONEST PEOPLE WHOM ARE SIMPLY TRYING TO “MOVE ON UP” CAN BE EVIL

ANYONE CAN BE OR BECOME YOUR ENEMY…

ROAMING THE NATION YOU MUST REMAIN UNSEEN YET SEEN

LIVE UNTIL FOUND USING WIT AND FORESTALL MAYHEM WHEN EVER POSSIBLE

FEEL FREE TO MOVE AWAY TO STAY FREE FIRST GAIN FREEDOM

ALWAYS MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH RATHER THAN CRY

BE ACCOMPLISHED BY READING FOR TELLING TALES MAKES ALL WHOLE

NEVER JUDGE ANYONE IN TALE OR STORY AND NEVER TAKE SIDES

DO NOT  ADD COMMENT TO ANY DISCUSSIONS ABOUT ANYONE

ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO YOU DO NOT KNOW YOU DO NOT KNOW

READ HOUSE OF CARDS 
OR

CRYSTAL METH LIFE OR DEATH SO BLOWS THE ICEY SOUTHERN EXPRESS
A TRUE HIS-STORY
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HOUSE OF CARDS THE CURSE OF ALPHONSO

IN A DOUBLE MURDER WITH EVERY APPEARANCE OF AN UNDERWORLD RUBOUT, TWO BROTHERS WITH LONG POLICE RECORDS WERE SHOT TO DEATH AT 9:30 LAST NIGHT IN THE KITCHEN OF THERE YORKVILLE PIZZERIA.

1996 CRYSTAL METH

THIS IS A TRUE STORY BASED ON ATLANTA AND THE SURROUNDING LOCAL CITIES AND COUNTIES.

NOTE: YORKVILLE IS IN LOWER MANHATTAN MY FATHER WAS 38. MY UNCLE 43. 

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